Finally after years of hard-work, practice and perfecting my pirouettes, the opportunity to audition for a production of the Nutcracker presented itself. It had been a long time dream to dance in the Nutcracker. Thursday night arrived and I would find out if I’d complete this dream.
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m in, I’m in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m finally in!
But I’m … a mouse? Hmmm…
Ecstatic, happy, thrilled… then a little disappointed because I found out that the mice scenes would all be modern dance, not ballet.
I know, I know…How ungrateful can a dancer girl be? Really!!!! How dare I feel disappointed when my new friend and I were both cast?! But, I really really wanted to dance in the snow scene, with its gorgeous classical ballet choreography.
Okay, I said it. I admit my moment of non-gratitude. Part of me wanted to run to my favorite chocolate shop and get a huge box of assorted dark chocolate truffles so I could happily wallow in my confused disappointment. It only lasted a brief moment before I began to laugh at myself.
… ahhh, like Forrest Gump once said, “life is like a box of chocolates you never know what you’re gonna get.”
With my attitude in check and renewed enthusiasm, I went to my first rehearsal and discovered it was actually quite fun! One of the aspects of modern dance that I enjoy is how free and unstructured it is. It’s creative, playful and yet physically challenging at the same time.
I’m not sure what I was expecting from the audition results. I thought it would be a simple “Yes you’re in”, or “No you’re not” …and “in” would mean ballet. It never dawned on me that I would be accepted into the Nutcracker but dance modern.
It reminds me of how many times over the years I’ve tried to plan life and it always had it’s own version for me, one that was very different from every scenario that I played out in my mind. Ahhh, life is just full of twists and surprises, isn’t it?
So rather than devour the entire box of chocolates and regret it later, I’ve decided to savor each one, explore the possibilities and appreciate the outcome!
What’s been in your box of chocolates? What interesting twists has life given you?