Today I chose to start my first Blog and begin this adventure. My wonderful husband has been encouraging me to start a blog for a while. Perhaps it will serve to share the bits I’ve learned along the way; perhaps I’m paying homage to my mentors who have made my life better; perhaps I can help someone along their way.
After I signed up for the wordpress blog account, and the “About Me” box was staring me in the eyeballs, I froze a little. The title of the show, “So You Think You Can Dance” jumped into my mind with a twist “So You Think You Can Write, Huh?” It kept repeating itself like there was a ‘repeat button’ that wouldn’t yield.
I then stated thinking of all my writing weaknesses that I’ve heard from countless teachers over the years:
“Ambiguous, Redundant, No Clear Story, No rise-climax – resolution, No Plot, Poor Grammar and obvious Dyslexia”.
I have heard encouraging words too though:
“Strong characters, strong dialog & poetic aspect”
So You Think You Can Write, Huh? Inner screams of AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH pure terror. Then my ‘inner Ox’ spoke up and said, “we are tenacious enough to overcome anything. If we ‘can’t write’ we will learn how…lets go!”
…and since there is no “can’t”….
My first artistic mentor said to me “An Actor Never Says ‘Can’t’.” It was my first audition for him. I was terribly afraid. I had been watching the auditions from behind a curtain in the audition room. Yes, I was hiding behind a curtain (I know, almost too embarrassing to admit this). I was 19 years old. I wanted to be an actor and performer more than anything in the world. I wanted NYC and Broadway, yet I was hiding behind a curtain watching the auditions for this dance theatre production.
Long story short – I was found out – some one saw my shoes and said, “whose behind the curtain?” …. and in my horror with strong boldness, I stepped out from behind the curtain. I was asked to audition and somehow, although completely unprepared, I coughed up a spontaneous audition. He then asked what my dance background was and I said “I can’t dance”
He said, “An Actor never says ‘can’t’ “
I said, “You don’t understand I really can’t dance”
He said, “ say that again without the word ‘can’t’.”
I said, “You don’t understand I really …dance”
He became my artistic mentor. That was my first dance theatre performance.
Now, 17 years later, ballet and other forms of dance (and yes Dance Theatre) are passions of mine. I have had many dance performances since then.
So today I begin my Blog as I boldly face my fears of writing in a public arena.
I think of the famous quote:
“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back…that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. …Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.” – Goethe
I begin now.